ali's Corner. [A New Journey]

I am being taught
a very difficult lesson
right now.
Learned only by hardship.
The way just ahead of me
is very, very steep.

"Breathe Me in
with each breath.
Slow down and cling tight
to My hand."

These are words given
to me as of late.

He's calling me
to His purpose for me.
But first,
I must desire Him.
More than anything else.
I must trust Him.
More than anyone else.
And I must follow Him.
More than anywhere else.

This begins a journey.
A journey of striving
to spend time with Him.
To talk with Him.
To pray with Him.
To listen to Him.

A journey of
falling in love with Him.
Every morning.

A journey that leads me
to a spirit filled life.
One that can recognize
God's voice among all the others.
With no question.

It's time I prove
my faith to my God.

To give up what I know.
As well as what I don't know.
To not only desire His will.
But to choose His will.
To follow His way to get there.
And to have faith that His word
is true in saying that His way is best for me.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" -Jeremiah 29:11

No more pretending.
No more relying on myself.

I remember a time just recently,
when my heart was slowly breaking.
It felt like there was a
hole in my chest.
And it physically hurt to breathe.
Nothing could subside this pain.
I didn't know where to turn.
I didn't sleep.
I'd wake up and go downstairs
just to sit.
Eating was at a minimum.
Movies, friends & everything else
were just temporary fixes.

After weeks of this intense
depression,
One day, my mom pulled out her bible.
And began reading to me every bible
verse she had ever highlighted during
much of her spiritual journey.

I listened to each verse.
Every word slowly forming a promise
made by God.
Within a couple verses,
my dark and weary soul began to
feel the light.
Hope was at the end.
The hole in my heart not only closed up,
but I felt full of life.
I was laughing.
I felt filled with joy.
After minutes of hearing God's word,
I wasn't scared of anything anymore.

So with that.
What else am I to do?
But to lean on my God.
Who's never failed to be there for me.
In all the years of my existence.
If I just let Him.

The road ahead of me
is very steep.
But I am not scared.

"Even though I walk through the
valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me." -Psalm 23:4

Words of encouragement are greatly appreciated in how to begin, stick with and effectively go on this journey. Thank you.
-ali