ali's Corner. [Empty Me.]

What an icy day.

These past few weeks,
I've been walking blindly.
Everything that's happend,
I've taken the role of a sponge
and allowed things to soak in slowly,
not really processing anything too much.

I've almost felt numb.
Not that I'm unable to feel any emotion,
but rather that my emotions
are not changing me.

I haven't been waking up
each morning to the God
of the universe very much lately.
But this morning I did.

And all the pieces fell together.
Everything in these past few weeks
have started to make sense.
The little and the big.
The few words God would
have me read or hear from a friend lately,
words like, "dependencies, trust & believing"
have started to connect.

What i've realized.
Is that I've been hungry.
For Christ.
He's the only One
that can truly satisfy me.

Whatever else makes me happy
is only temporary.
But coming away from giving
Him my time this morning,
leaves me full.
Completely renewed & with a sense
of security and certainty about the future.
About everything.
And nothing else can give me that.
Not even myself.

This morning, full of God's love,
I put my pen on a blank page
of my journal and started writing
these words that God started
speaking to me:

"Empty you of yourself. Let me be your desire - your everything. I will fill you with strength and power to obtain victory in all circumstances."

Oh, Lord.
I want nothing more.

I am all in.