ali's Corner. [My Heart Is Spoken For]

A lot of people know what I believe.
A lot of people would say I have Christian beliefs.
And when it comes to Critical Comedy...Religulous...Zeit Geist, etc.
People think I will be offended.
People think that if the logic and facts behind their stance are supportive enough,
that in my mind, I will consider my beliefs to be false.
to be impossible.
That I'll give up.
And throw my faith away.

But my beliefs go so much farther than a book and a cross.
Yes, these are incorporated but they're not the main course.

Here me when I say

I am 100% completely and wholeheartedly His.
And it's not because I want to go to Heaven.
Of course I do. But that's not the reason I believe.

I believe what I do because
I have experienced His love.
I have felt His touch.
I have seen the way He works through people.
I have heard His voice in my head.

Given all these different senses, in my mind I could say
I've experienced God as plain as day.
Which gives the question
" Is seeing believing or is believing seeing"
Another thing to fight about.

There are things in this world that exist
That in my mind make it impossible for Him NOT to exist.

My niece, when she laughs.
A terminally ill friend telling her family on exactly which day she will die.
And saying goodbye to them on that exact day.
A blooming flower at the beginning of spring with snow still covering the ground.
Being at church and hearing my Pastor say "I love you" the way he does.
And
the way I felt His arms around me when I laid in bed that night, years ago, crying so hard that I struggled to find a reason to keep living.

To me, it's not about what adds up and what doesn't. It's not about the facts and the logic.
It's not about the doubts that have and will continue to enter my mind as I live each day in this world.
It's about faith.
And the way that mine won't be shaken.
It can't be shaken.
By Anyone.
But I say this with everything I have in me.
I am completely SOLD OUT to Christ.

It's okay to doubt. It's okay to have questions.
It's okay to never have an answer.
But I promise anyone that if you give Him a chance,
and I mean really give him a chance.
Not a test.
A heartfelt slide over to make room for him, chance.
He will NOT let you down.

Last week at church my knees felt weak and tears came to my eyes when I sang the words,
"Take this world from me.
I don't need it anymore.
To hear you say 'This one's mine'
My heart is spoken for."

The only reason that I'm still living is because I haven't completed whatever purpose I have that God has set out for me. I'm not afraid of dying.
I'm not afraid of death.
I'm not afraid.

I am absolutely head over heels in love.
with Christ.
Let me share some with you.