ali's Corner. [Transparency]

It feels good to sing songs like

"Where You go, I'll go.

Where You stay, I'll stay.

When You move, I'll move.

I will follow You."

OR

"The cross before me,

the world behind me.

Though none go with me,

I will follow you."

But can we truly abandon our hearts

and surrender our lives to God

until what He is asking of us

is revealed directly in front of our faces?

He's started asking me of things

which paralyze me at the thought of them.

They paralyze me with fear.

I'm learning what those songs actually mean now.

What if I feel like He's asking too much?

What if I'm the girl He calls to leave her family?

What if when I get up to speak, He doesn't give me the words?

What if my God, whom I hold with the highest regard, fails me?

May He turn my fear into faith.

Because what He is asking me to do,

isn't just a race.

It's not jumping hurdles

with the occasional 200 meter sprint.

He's asking me to move mountains.

He's asking me to do something that I

physically cannot do on my own.

So God?

You better come through.

All of my weight is on You.

And if You fail me,

I will fall.

This is my heart cry:

"Pray also for me, that whenever I speak, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should." -Ephesians 6:19-20