ali's Corner. [I Am Captivating.]

People always associate little girls

with dress up and dollys;

pink ribbons and jump ropes;

day dreaming about princes

and pretending to be princesses.

Thinking back on my childhood;

to times that could be labeled as,

"when I was a little girl",

I was never 'that' princess.

I never really wanted to be.

I was a tom boy.

I grew up playing with my brother's toys;

matchbox cars, creepy crawlers,

iron man and power rangers.

I wore cut off jeans, converse sneakers,

baggy t-shirts and a loose pony tail.

Growing up,

I was always different;

I still am,

and I cherish that very much.

And anytime I've ever thought back

to my little girl years,

I've always said,

"I never had hopes of being a princess.

I never wanted to be rescued by a knight

in shining armor.

I never dreamed of getting married

or falling in love.

I despised the color pink."

But now,

and even from this recent study of the book

by John and Staci Eldridge, Captivating,

I've learned much about myself.

Some people associate "self-help"

books with weakness or desparation;

but maybe they're just scared of what

they might learn about themselves.

I, myself, have learned that I do indeed

want to be rescued and pursued and wanted.

I want to be swept off my feet and swayed and wooed.

I'm a woman and that is who God created me to be.

I am the compliment of man, the capstone of creation.

Knowing this, has highlighted the importance

of constantly being aware of my purpose on earth.

It's not even the unbelieveable and miraculous ways

God has used my talents and passions to inspire and reach others;

it's the simplicity of my creation.

To be a woman,

to be confident, inviting,

tender and alluring,

intimate and devoted.

I was made to love and be loved in return.

God knows my heart.

He knows my desires better than I do.

Before I even knew,

He was certain that I indeed DO want to be

rescued and swayed and pursued;

as does He.

When God created woman;

He purposely put something of Himself

inside each of us that He fully intended

to be shared with the world.

We are the essence of God.

As men are the image of God.

They are God's creation.

As we are creation's crescendo.

By knowing this,

my desparity that I sometimes feel,

the lonliness that overcomes me

every once in a while,

The longing and yearning for that,

...prince;

reaches a point of irrelevance.

No matter my want,

my desire for God's will is greater.

And my reasoning for that is well supported.

I know with all of my heart that he is out there;

the man that God hand-picked for me.

I know that God is working on his heart, too,

as He is working on mine.

If I don't allow Him to work,

because I'm too busy wishing

something would change,

then i've just created the greatest tragedy

to potentially the greatest love story of all time.

Because when that day comes that I am to meet him;

but I've been too busy being lonely

and a lot less busy coinciding with God,

I won't be ready for him.

I want him to find me,

pursue me, sway me and woo me,

while I'm on this journey.

I want him to find me on the path,

not on the side of the road waiting.

He'd pass me by.

I want our paths to collide.

I'm ready.

I'm excited.

I am not yearning.

Nor am I lonely.

I have the entire world

at my finger tips,

I can taste it.

My mind is ready to learn;

and my heart can only get bigger.