ali's Corner. [The Child In Me]

Sometimes I feel like people look at me like i'm a child.
Because the things I believe;
the things I've decided for my life
are...
childish.

Because I believe in God,
I must not understand that my faith
is truely weaker than all of the
well supported facts you're
throwing at my face clearly stating
it cannot be true.

Because I've chosen the road of purity
that I must have it easy.

I must not understand what it's like
to feel guilty, ashamed or wronged.

I must not understand how sex complicates
a relationship.

But before I completely anger at the
criticism,
Let's go a different route.
Rather than Childish being
"immature".
Or "naive."

Childish = child-like.

Like a child.

Have you ever seen the look in a child's eyes at christmas time?
The determination on their faces when they get up in front of the class and state
what they want to be when they grow up.
Have you ever listened to an 8 year old cancer patient's take on life?

Children are, unavoidably, naive.
Innocent.
and Immature.
But truely
creative
and honest.

And really, it's the
imagination,
the unconditional love
their ability to trust so easily
and their undying determination to
get that fort built just right in the front living room
even if mom told her to take it down by morning.

Our child-like motives are what we lose so easily
as we grow up.
Yet it's what has taken us thus far in life.
What if we just held onto it?
Needless to say,
we learn from experiences/mistakes
but a child's ability to learn
to forgive/forget
and keep on loving is one of the most
admiring qualities any single person can have.

Inside every small child is one big imagination
wanting out.
To get at the world
and see where it takes them.
They speak their minds
and believe with all their heart.
They learn from falling down.
Yet that doesn't keep them from getting right back on their bicycle.

So before you tip your head
and look down at my short little body.
before the words "aww..."
come out of your mouth,
realize that within this
giddy, carefree, unable to keep a straight face, witty character of a girl,
lies something i'd like to believe i've never lost.
the child within me.
I've experienced things people probably wouldn't imagine.
But it's the way you react to your experiences that matter.

And while I know i'll learn a little more about life each day,
this excites me.
But i'll never lose my outlook on life.
I know it.

I'll love without a judge.
I'll believe without a burden.
and I'll dance without chains on my feet.
Because I am
a 21-year old child.
Already facing the world.