ali's Corner. [Insomnia For Thought]

This week my mind has been
in places of all sorts.
all at once, even.

I could swear that the
pain killers i was on caused
a slight side effect of...
autism.

my mind couldnt concentrate.
which leaves me here.
with no particular point.
no organized series of thoughts
to make you think a certain
particular way that i do.

instead i'm thinking about
driving a car on a sheet of ice.
how fun it would be
if the scene provided the space
free of obstacles.

worry.
like someone sitting by themselves.
an elderly lady
who just lost her husband.
who's gonna watch her die?

cooking eggs for my husband one day.
i dont even have a husband.
why am i thinking about cooking eggs for him??

what if a piano's keys had big black keys
and all the sharps and flats were instead, white.
i've heard of a left handed drummer
is there such thing as a left handed pianist?

sometimes i just feel like laughing.
my life has been so blessed with so many things
i cant help but smile.
i'm not even in the presence of anyone.
just sitting in my room.
listening to this happy upbeat
joshua radin song.
what do you do when you laugh by yourself?
how do you know when to stop?
the best thing is you dont really have to.

i cant sleep in complete silence.
my body physically won't let me relax.
the silence starts ringing and i feel pressure on my head.
so i usually turn on my fan.
the low hum helps me sleep.
but being wintertime, that can get kind of cold.
one night
it was completely silent.
and i couldn't sleep.
so i started humming.
to myself.
and i fell asleep.
i like being dependent on myself.

the beatles.
why are their hair cuts back in style?
i kind of love it.

OO!
bumper sticker:
peace: back due to high demand.


what's all on your minds?
what does one "think about" when they can't sleep?