ali's Corner. [Patience]

I have this problem.
it's the problem of
letting go.
and not necesarily
of a person.
more of an idea.

when i see a gorgeous guy
i want to know him.
i have to talk to him.
and when the conver-
sation is over. what's
left to do?

get his number?
plan to get coffee?
email him?

it's something i've always
had a problem with.
just being okay with saying
good bye to a guy
without worry that i'll
never see him again.

tonight i think i had a
change of heart.

recently discussing with
my best friend,
we like the kinds of looks
people of the opposite sex
give us that don't say
"lookin good."
or
"hey hottie"

never been a fan.

i'm into the looks like
the one i got tonight.
the look of
"wow"
or
"you look really nice"
followed by a warm smile,
a soft handshake and
eye contact that's too
long to be considered just
a "traditional meeting."

when it came time to leave.
i walked over to try to
set up another meeting
in the future.
but i stopped.
and looked away.

it's not time.
my heart said.
just be patient.
and when i'm ready.
and God says it's okay.
i'll meet him.
and I won't walk out the
door without making sure
that i'll see him again.