ali's Corner. [Just Outside My Bedroom Window]

An excerpt from my journal today:

"Another bad dream.
And when I say bad, I mean good-
but it breaks my heart when I wake up."

I had all of these things written
down in my journal that I was
worried, hurt and stressed about.

I turned to my open bedroom window.
I looked out and heard the songs of birds,
the smell of the trees and the cool breeze flow in.

I began quickly reading to God.
All of my doubts, worries and struggles.
My voice became louder and faster.
I began to feel overwhelmed about all that
was written on that page.

I stopped reading.
My racing thoughts were interrupted
by the current song that was playing.

"Please, be still.
Please, be still.
Please, be still.
and know that I am God"

My head cleared.
My heart said
"This is all that matters".
There is nothing to worry about.

I told God that I choose to see Him
through all of my struggles.
To see His works.
Just then,
the sun came out.
Brighter than usual.
It warmed the Earth.

"Well that's one of His works"

I asked Him to show me more.
And the trees danced.
The leaves rotated in circles
as the breeze embraced them.

I smiled.

I asked Him to show me living creatures.
And a butterfly zoomed past.

Who am I to be distraught over my struggles
when the God of the universe created all of this?
Is He not bigger than the battle?

I'll tell you one thing:
I spend much energy sharing with all of you
what I believe in.
But have I ever told you what I don't believe in?

Coincedence.