ali's Corner. [Closed for Maintenence]

I've come to realize that

It's harder for me to be a Christian now
than it was when I was a teenager.

As adolescents,
we're still creating & finding ourselves.
But by now
I have my base.
I'll grow from here.
But what's growth without trial?
Without pain?
And experience?

Every worldly desire that has ever
tempted me, is overwhelming.

I feel like I'm striving to live out God's way,
yet I'm suffering ample amounts of
worldly pain.

I feel God holding me through this.
I see the puzzle pieces.
I see how everything could come together.
To perfection.
To God's works.

Oh, patience,
how I need you.

My faith is there.
It just doesn't feel as strong
as it used to be.
But what's strength without
weakness?

My roller coaster is clicking slowly
to the top of the hill.
I'm on the brink.
I feel the slight breeze coming up
over the soon to be descent.

I'm so ready.
So sick of this world full of
pain and suffering.

I'm ready to rise up.
Like wings on Eagles.
It's the only place I feel I belong.

I know I don't belong here.
This body is only temporary.
I'm here to fufill a purpose.
The only reason I open my eyes every morning
and breathe in another breath of life each second
is because that purpose hasn't been fufilled yet.

I live for God.
And in return He blesses me.
With things my heart desires.
And more.

I want to find him.
The one i'll spend the rest of my life with.
I want a family.
I want to teach my children how to love.
I want to make a difference.


My heart constantly aches
with desire for these things.

Not to us,
but to His name be the glory.