confusion.
i close my eyes.
desperately reaching into the deepest parts of my mind.
puzzle pieces.
scattered helplessly on the floor.
where do i even start?
some pieces are bigger than others.
some filled with passion.
motivation.
dreaming big.
the dreams that i had as a child.
the ones that were never ending.
never too big for reality.
and others get in the way.
the pieces that gives no clues as to exactly where it goes in the finished product.
so i set it aside.
but it's still there.
it has to be incorporated somehow.
self-conscious
the past haunts me.
i am different.
and because i'm different
people don't always know how to treat me.
95% of the time i end up getting hurt.
im not about saying who i am.
im about showing who i am.
love me and i'll show you a love you've never experienced before.
one with meaning.
one that's worth it.
doesn't anyone understand?
am i the only one that's left like this in existance?
change.
it all happens so fast.
i look back and realize
how much i was babied up until high school graduation.
it was all about having fun.
now...it's about having fun,
but not without sacrifice.
a rope.
with two ends.
one end holds my future
which continuously tugs at my heart,
inching me forward.
the other end.
my dreams.
the ones that are too big for reality in the adult world,
but my childish instincts are still there telling me to go for it.
two ends.
that could possibly be one someday.
are pulling tightly.
something's gotta give.
i've gotta be strong.
and literally pull it together.
and do what i want to do.
be who i want to be.
it's time.
i'm on the brink.
and it's ending in happiness.
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